Running Amuck

                  That is a term that we here all the time, it is used as an excuse by people when they make simple mistakes or NOT so simple mistakes. I recently experienced soem HUMAN ERROR that has kind of made a huge impact on my life. I was recently contacted by the local health department of Nevada and told that I could possibly have Hepatice or AIDS because someone was trying to save money or supplies or BOTH and they were re using syringes. I went through 2 weeks of not knowing and finally was told that I was negative on all counts. I am not sure how I feel now. I am mad and I feel like it is not fair, BUT also I think that this happened for a reason I just do not know what that reason is as of yet, I do know I need to change the way I live my life I want to LIVE more and experience LIFE more. No regrets!!!

                             It has been 14 years as of April 1st 2008. 14 years of being married to my wife. Before you read this and think I am complaining....read on! My wife will be the first person to tell you that it has not been easy:however, we have become stronger with each problem. To tell the truth I never thought I would get married or ever find that special someone to share my life with. GOD works in the starngest ways soemtimes. I am forever grateful for HIS gift of my wife and I amlooking forward to the next 14 years.

Here I Am, Lord, And I’m Drowning In Your Sea Of Forgetfulness
The Chains Of Yesterday Surround Me
I Yearn For Peace And Rest
I Don’t Want To End Up Where You Found Me
And It Echoes In My Mind, Keeps Me Awake Tonight
I Know You’ve Cast My Sin As Far As The East Is From The West
And I Stand Before You Now As Though I’ve Never Sinned
But Today I Feel Like I’m Just One Mistake Away From You Leaving Me This Way

Jesus, Can You Show Me Just How Far The East Is From The West
’cause I Can’t Bear To See The Man I’ve Been Come Rising Up In Me Again
In The Arms Of Your Mercy I Find Rest
’cause You Know Just How Far The East Is From The West
From One Scarred Hand To The Other

I Start The Day, The War Begins, Endless Reminding Of My Sin
Time And Time Again Your Truth Is Drowned Out By The Storm I’m In
Today I Feel Like I’m Just One Mistake Away From You Leaving Me This Way

I Know You’ve Washed Me White, Turned My Darkness Into Light
I Need Your Peace To Get Me Through, To Get Me Through This Night
I Can’t Live By What I Feel, But By The Truth Your Word Reveals
I’m Not Holding On To You, But You’re Holding On To Me
You’re Holding On To Me

Jesus, You Know Just How Far The East Is From The West
I Don’t Have To See The Man I’ve Been Come Rising Up In Me Again
In The Arms Of Your Mercy I Find Rest
’cause You Know Just How Far The East Is From The West
From One Scarred Hand To The Other
One Scarred Hand To The Other
From One Scarred Hand To The Other

 

                                                                       If  you have not seen this movie yet I highly recommend it. At the end of the movie some really good points are brought up about America's de sensitivity to violence.
                                                                       The basic concept of the movie is that Diane Lane (Cherry Valance from the Outsiders) plays an FBI agent who works in the computer fraud department. SHE and here team watch the World Wide Web for offensive material and then shut them down. They are successful with their tasks UNTIL a new site open KILLWITHME.COM. The killing starts with a house cat trapped in glue trap for mice. People log to the web site to see the impending death. Then the killing accelerates to a man and continues..but wth the next killing...the more people that log on the faster the man is killed. The killings are pure genius and bring back memories of the original Saw movie and JigSaw. At the end of the killer explains why he did what he did and speaks to the killing on the web and what he thinks the next logical step would be.
                                                                       I saw this movie with my brother and based on what was discussed at the end of the movie we debated back and forth on how realistic it was. I personally believe  that unfortunately.....with our society today I believe it is.
                                                                         Let me know if you have seen the movie and what you thoughts are?? 

         That is what they say.....But I disagree, I think  the more things change the more they change. As I get older I find that the world changes more and more. I do not necessarily agree with the changes that I see, I see children growing up way to fast, I see innocent people dying because they looked at someone else in the wrong way or they said something that the other person did not agree with. A couple of weeks ago on our local news we had a shooting a day at one of our local schools. Students shooting students, one of those was drive by where they shot into a crowd. A 19 yr old was at the wheel of the car and a 15yr old did the shooting. A man caught someone "tagging" his property tried to stop it and was shot in the stomach for it. What happened to settling your differences with your fist, now it guns and knives!! 

Where are the children getting the guns and ammo? I can not believe that this is even an issue. For the past 2 weeks every night there has been at least one story either about a student getting shot or doing the shooting or dying or being hospitalized. I do not rememeber my child hood being this scary. People made threats, and maybe someone was walking around with a black eye or a couple of scraps or bruises BUT never a bullet hole or worse!

 My love that I feel for my family and how lucky and blessed I feel to have those that I hold close to me in my life. Thank you does not seem good enough. I fear that some times my family does not believe me when I say that I am grateful and I express my love.

I would use that one day to communicate with my family and friends and thank them for their contributions to my life and let them knwo how much their love and support meant to me. I would want them to know that I loved them with all my heart and that I will be ok, I am going home.
 

In a little over a month I will be 40. I have talked to other people not just men who have reached this milestone and I have heard different things. I have heard it is the most difficult time in persons life others have told me it is no big deal.
Most people have told me that they get really introspective and start looking back at their life. I have already done this...more than once actually. The first time was about 5 years ago when I gave my life to OUR Lord and Savior and then again 4 years ago when I was diagnosed with Diabetes and then again a year ago when I had shoulder surgery and I did not know if i would be able to use my arm again and go back to work in the kitchens. Working in the kitchens I had to be able to lift a min of 50lbs and for almost 2 years I could not even lift 2lbs. I had worked hard and invested a lot of money in my chosen career as a chef. I did not know what I was going to do.
Now I am working at a dream job for me. I work for my college The Art Institute of Las Vegas as a Culinary Specialist for the High School representatives. I have the opportunity to go out on a daily basis and advise high school students on what opportunities my school hold s for them. I am blessed that I can lift more than 50lbs now thanks to my physical therapist and my starting to work out for the first time in 39 yrs. I have a great family and a really great support system. So as I said at the begging I am looking forward to turning 40 and to the next 40 years.